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MY
(Chris Hludzik)
My feet are achin', but I can't stop walkin'
My mouth is tired, but I can't stop talkin'
My head is hurtin', but I can't stop thinkin'
My thirst has been quenched, but I can't stop drinkin'
My hunger is gone, but I can't stop eatin'
I'm wide awake, but I wish I was sleepin'
CHORUS 1:
And life's a game, but I've been cheatin'
My, my, gonna cry
My game is over, but I keep on playin'
There's nothin' left to say, but I keep on sayin'
I don't understand religion, but I keep on prayin'
My spirit lives in the night, but always lets the day in
I found a good home, but I kept on strayin'
I stumbled to the door, but couldn't find the way in
CHORUS 2:
And life's a play I got the worst part in
My, my, gonna try
My voice is hoarse, but I can't stop singin'
My ears hear bells, but there ain't no bells ringin'
My eyes see things where there's nothin' to see
In my heart's a desire, a fire burning me
I see feet movin', but nobody's walkin'
Mouths are movin', but nobody's talkin'
CHORUS 3:
And life's a bad conversation that i just walked into
My, my, gonna die.
CHORUS 1, 2, and 3, then fade out
©2006, 2017, Chris Hludzik.
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SLEEP FOREVER
(Chris Hludzik)
INTRO:
Tony! This song's for you.
You spoke it harsh, but you spoke it true.
Wake up my love!
Don’t worry – I won’t.
The day breaks, my love!
What’s the hurry? It’s the same as before.
What can you do
When your heart’s been broken in two?
What can you say
When there’s nothing – left to live for?
CHORUS:
I wish that I could sleep forever –
And ever and never wake up.
I’d close my eyes and dream –
Until the world breaks up.
Come on, my love!
Don’t push me – I won’t move.
Turn on, my love!
What are you trying to prove?
What can you do
When your will’s been taken from you?
What can you say
When you don’t think that you can see it through one more day?
CHORUS:
Where can you go
That you haven’t already been to?
What do you know
In a world that’s cold and untrue?
I wish I (x4)
I wish that I could sleep forever –
And ever and never wake up
I’d close my (x4)
I’d close my eyes and dream –
Until the world breaks up
I wish that I could sleep forever –
And ever and never wake up.
©2003, Chris Hludzik.
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NEGATIVE SPACE
(Chris Hludzik)
I’m not alone, but I may as well be
You’re about as friendly as a withered old tree
Talking to you is like talking to air
I see someone, but there’s nobody there
Your intellect is the size of a pin
Your ignorance is like original sin
Your eyes are hollow just like a drone
Your lights are on, but there’s nobody home.
A dark void blacker than a hole
You’re like a demon sucking your soul
You’re like a virus slowly eating me
You’re like a cruise ship lost at sea
Worse than a headache that won’t go away
Like a discrepancy in my pay
You’re like an itch that I can’t reach
You never practice what you preach.
I came to you to fill my void
But instead I became annoyed
Your attitude, worse than a prude
If I spoke my mind you’d say that I was rude
You’re like dead weight hanging around
You’re so noisy but you don’t make a sound
You’re superficial, you put me to sleep
But you're just part of a growing cult - the negative deep.
You have no heart, but you’re still alive
You feed off me so you can survive
You write your words in invisible ink
You are the drain in my life’s sink
You don’t fulfill me, you let me down
But I feel so inclined to have you around
You’re like sex without protection
You’re the opposite of perfection
The antithesis of what I am
But I’ll remain with you, and be forever damned.
You’re like writing on a wall
But I can’t see what has been scrawled
The rain has washed it all away
Just another empty part of another empty day
Come around, knock me down, safe and sound and go away.
©2004, Chris Hludzik.
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INSTRUMENTAL
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All Amped Up (Demo)
05:59
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ALL AMPED UP
(Chris Hludzik)
Did you ever get that feeling, from deep down below?
Glad and excited all over, feel like you’re on a roll.
It’s like a fire in your heart, and an aching in your soul.
But you just sit there wasted, dazed in the afterglow.
Then you put down your guitar, and down the stairs you go.
You jump into your car, with no special place to go.
And you saw the light turn red, but you never even seen,
That while you were waiting hungrily, all the time it was green.
And so another dull day passes, with the sunset one more will grow.
And you feel so used, mislead and confused, abused by an overthrow.
And as the day slowly dims, and then quickly turns to black,
You wish you could have held on, you wish you could take it back.
And after all your friends have left you, there’s only one thing that you know:
It’s no use being all amped up, when you got no place to go
I’ve seen freedom in the mountains, I’ve seen fighting on the streets,
But I’ve got a deeper hunger, one that can’t be beat.
I’ve seen criminals walking free, I’ve seen peacemakers hang from the poles.
I’ve seen people who were all amped up, but too afraid to come out of their holes.
I’ve seen beauty in the darkness, I’ve seen evil in the light.
I’ve seen people who are killing, but no one wins the fight.
I’ve used all the excuses, now all my friends are foes.
But no one hears me crying, no one feels my woes.
And we’ve created a prison, where anyone can go.
But we can never break away, because we do not know.
In the sky the sun is shining, but it’s always rain in my heart.
And it’s hard to be all amped up, broken down and torn apart.
So I try not to get excited, ’cause if there’s one thing that I know,
It’s just a goddamn shame, when you’re all amped up, and you got no place to go.
©2005, Chris Hludzik.
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NEED
(Chris Hludzik)
I don't need no big brother
Already got one watching me
From the day I was born, it's the eye in the sky
It just won't let me be.
I don't need no candy
My bag is full to the brim
But the taste so sweet, just can't beat
The bitter state I'm in.
I don't need no friends
I've got one or two of them
But where will they be, when I'm in need?
They'll just run away again.
I don't need no sunshine
I've already seen the light
But the light is dim, and the future's grim
It's darker than the night.
I don't need no tall tales
I've been told enough of those
But they kept me locked up in the dark
From the things I should have known.
I don't need no justice
Never had it anyway
Well they say it's blind, so it might not find
A place for me today.
I don't need no money
My wallet's not what it seems
It can't help you, it can't help me
It can't buy us our dreams.
I don't need no doctor
I already know what's wrong
It's a social disease, brought me to my knees
That's why I'm singing this song.
I don't need no medicine
I'm gonna die anyway
And when I do, I hope it's quick
'Cause I've got to get away...
©2006, Chris Hludzik.
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Live (Demo)
05:53
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LIVE
(Chris Hludzik)
You’re movin’ on without me
But I wanna come too
You say “Don’t worry, I’ll be around”
But how do I know if it’s true?
They say that weather changes moods
And it’s been rainin’ an awful lot
You act like you know what you want
But you don’t even know what you’ve got.
CHORUS:
So what should I do
While you shuffle your thoughts through your head?
You say live – live or be dead.
It seems fair enough
For you to try new things
Come out of your corner swinging
In life’s boxing ring
It seems clear enough
For you to hold your own
But PLEASE make up your mind
Or I’ll just have to go it alone.
CHORUS:
CHORUS:
Ever since you’ve left me
I’ve been able to see
You were not what I thought you were
And you could never be.
I often think about you
And the advice that you would give
And boy, I’m glad I listened
‘Cause I’ve finally started to live.
So what do you do –
Just shuffle your thoughts through your head?
You’d better live – or you’ll wind up dead.
©2006, Chris Hludzik.
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Insomnia (Demo)
03:04
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INSOMNIA
(Chris Hludzik)
It’s tough to fall asleep
When you’ve got these dreams that you can’t keep
And nightmares that just won’t let you be
Knowing you’re only hours away
From the pain and frustration of another day
You wonder, “will I ever be free – to be me?”
My head feels heavy, as I turn out the light
But no matter what I do
It’s so hard to say goodnight…
CHORUS:
Insomnia (There ain’t no cure for) (x2)
Insomnia
The only sure thing
Is that you gotta wake up
That clock is foolin’ me
It can’t be as late as it seems to be
2 a.m.? My mind is on the run
Computer screen that shines so bright
In the middle of my darkest nights
Convincing myself that this is fun
Tossin’ and turnin’
I can’t get a wink
I’m tryin’ hard to nod off
But all I can do is blink…
CHORUS:
BRIDGE:
And all my days I will wander
In a dreary, weary, sleepy haze
This caffeinated culture barely keeps me awake
Through the daily grind and the promise of another empty handshake…
CHORUS (x2):
©2007, Chris Hludzik.
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LEAVE IT AT HOME
(Chris Hludzik)
I don’t want any more of your cheap talk
Don’t ya know that I’m poor enough as it is?
And I don’t wanna hear any more late night stories
Cause nowadays everybody thinks they’re in showbiz
I don’t wanna hear about the day you had
And I’m pretty sure you don’t care to hear about mine
I didn’t come out tonight to resurrect the past
I came here with the sole intention of having a good time
CHORUS:
So don’t talk to me about all the same old shit
Or remind me of the losers chomping at the bit
Or brag about the winners (they’re so full of it)
Please spare me, just leave it at home
If you can’t make me laugh, I want you out of my face
If you can’t bring me joy, in my life you’ve got no place
If you can’t ease my mind then why the hell are you here?
If you can’t help me, then please, just disappear
If you can’t make me feel alive then just go away
So I can live to hear your bullshit some other day
If you’re just gonna tease me, then don’t come around
I don’t need a lifted spirit that I have to bring down
CHORUS:
BRIDGE:
Please don’t insult my intelligence
With your stupidity and ignorance
Now I don’t wanna come off as arrogant
But I know that my time can be better spent
And don’t try to massage my intellect
‘Cause half of what you know is incorrect
Now I don’t mean you any disrespect
But to me you’re just another reject
CHORUS (x2)
©2007, Chris Hludzik.
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FRIEND
(Chris Hludzik)
You tell me that I’m a good time
But I’m not good enough for ALL of your time
I’m just a jester-
A perfume tester for you to prime
Your eyes seem so sincere,
But it’s really evil stares
Looking down
Turning your smile to an evil frown
I wonder what you say
When I’m not around
When you lift me up,
Are you really bringing me down?
CHORUS:
Some would say that I’m foolish
Some would say that I’m weak
Some would say my soul will never mend
Some would call you a liar
Some would call you a thief
But me? I call you “Friend”.
Your actions make me suspicious
But I’m not one to judge
I don’t like mind games, or dropping names
And I NEVER hold a grudge
Truth is stranger than fiction
But fiction’s much more fun
When you know I’ve nowhere to go
And you’ve got me on the run
I wonder what you’d say
If you could say it to my face
I wonder what I’d say
If I didn’t feel so out of place
CHORUS:
If ya can’t say something nice, then
Don’t say nothing at all
I’d rather shut up
Than have to put up with taking the fall
They say that he who has no sin
Can cast the first stone
That’s not for me –
Just wanna be left alone.
I could’ve saved myself some trouble
If only I knew
All I needed was a friend
But instead, I got YOU
CHORUS:
OUTRO (Repeat through fade):
Goodbye old friend, goodbye!!!
©2007, Chris Hludzik.
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THE ALMIGHTY DOLLAR (IN GOD WE TRUST...?)
(Chris Hludzik)
On the almighty dollar
It says "in god we trust"
It says it on the nickels, quarters and dimes
And the pennies full of rust
The establishment bleeds ya
And you supply the stuff
They tell ya to hand it over
And don't give then any guff
CHORUS 1:
And the price to live is high
And even if ya wanna die
That'll cost ya too
Cause even if you have a say
There's a price to pay
In god we trust...god who?
Prices are risin'
Misers are misin'
And another hard-earned dollar
Is sucked down the drain
Until we're poor and full of pain
But what they don't realize
Is that we already are
Generic brands, 30 year mortgage
And a beat up domestic car
CHORUS 2:
And the price to live is high
And even if ya wanna die
That'll cost ya too
Cause even if you find a way
There's a price to pay
In god we trust...god who?
And even in the churches
They're preachin' interest rates
"We need a new roof, collars for my suit -
Load the collection plate"
Then when they find you're out of money
That's when they throw you out
You have no dollars, and it makes no sense
You wish you could find a way out
CHORUS 3:
And the price to live is high
And even if ya wanna die
That'll cost ya too
Cause even if you wanna pray
There's a price to pay
In god we trust...god who?
SOLO
The teachers are on strike again
Their pickets scream "MORE PAY"
But the children haven't got smarter
I see no reason for them to stay
And the neatly-crafted currency
Still boasts "in god we trust"
But no one cares who god is
He's blowin' in the dust
FINAL CHORUS:
And the price to live is high
And even if ya wanna die
That'll cost ya too
Cause even if you wanna play
There's a price to pay
In god we trust...god who?
©2007, 2017, Chris Hludzik.
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BLEEDING EARS
(Chris Hludzik)
Heard a mother say to her child
“Wish you were never born”
Heard a poor man on the street cryin’
For clothes he’s never worn
Late at night I heard the TV howlin’
Talkin’ about the war
And it makes me so curious
So I listen, quietly listen…
CHORUS:
With my bleeding ears
I hear the cries of the world
And with my bleeding eyes, I can see
All the bleeding hearts
Licking each other’s wounds
Longing to be free.
On the radio
Heard all the same old songs
When so many others never got a chance to sing along
Felt the cut of hatred – its wounds never heal
All the good blood is in the gutter
The bad blood left to congeal
And it makes me so furious
As I listen, quietly listen…
CHORUS:
And it makes me delirious
It’s so hard to listen, but I still listen…
CHORUS: (x2)
©2007, Chris Hludzik.
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THE THANKS I GET
(Chris Hludzik)
When your empire was crumbling
I was there to pick up the pieces
And put it back together again
When your world didn’t turn
And hard lessons were learned
I was with you through it all, my friend
But when I pulled you from the ditch
And put you back on the road
You seemed to forget who got you there
Well they say life – it’s a bitch
It leaves you lost and leaves you cold
Full of doubt and full of fear
And when I needed you, you weren’t there
I guess you didn’t think to care…
And that’s the thanks I get
I was always setting things up
To help you make a name
I did the work, you took the credit
But when things didn’t pan out
It was me who got the blame
I’ll never forget it
I held my end of every bargain
Stayed true to my word
Took too many falls for you
Lies, excuses and jargon
From you were all I heard
What did you expect me to do?
But you wouldn’t drop your agenda for MY affairs
I guess you felt you were too important to care…
And that’s the thanks I get
Yeah that's the thanks I get.
©2008, Chris Hludzik.
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Northwest Song (Demo)
03:28
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NORTHWEST SONG
(Chris Hludzik)
Crank it up real loud
To get the message through
And if you don't seem too proud
They might believe in you
Just don't wash your hair
And tear some holes in your jeans
Just cast a blank stare
Make them feel what you think you've been
CHORUS:
But we weren't stars
We wouldn't last that long
Just kids with guitars
Trying to play those Northwest songs
So young and so bold
We thought we knew it all
In a world so cold
With our backs to the wall
Distortion and gain
To make it all come down
Frustration and pain
Like a gray day in a Northwest town
CHORUS:
BRIDGE:
Can you feel the pain?
Can you feel the shame?
Does it feel the same
As everything else?
But we'll insist it's a new sound
We'll try and cover some new ground
Even though it's the same ground
That's been trampled by everyone else
CHORUS:
©2009, Chris Hludzik.
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For Mercy (Demo)
02:40
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FOR MERCY
(Chris Hludzik)
I’m tired of always keeping the peace
All I ever wanted was to say my peace
What I could use in my life is a little peace
Oh please
Please let me be
I don’t want to go through this again
But there’s no way to be sure it won’t happen again
Well I don’t think I can make it through this again
Oh please
Please let me be
Oh please
Please let me be at ease
CHANGE
But you know me
It just wouldn’t be a normal day
Without a little rain
You can show me
But somehow I’d feel a little lost
Without the pain
SOLO
CHANGE
I’m sick of always feeling left out
If I’m not wanted here then I should just get out
Sometimes I think I’m better off being left out
Oh please
Please let me be
Oh please
Please let me be at ease
©2009, Chris Hludzik.
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Resurfaced (Demo)
03:12
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RESURFACED
(Chris Hludzik)
So you thought that it was over
Done and gone away
You’ve left it all behind
But it’s never really over
It comes back to you someday
How could you be so blind?
CHANGE
And no one is immune to it
It’s something we all face
The unrest of never knowing
The time or the place
So when it finally hits you
Don’t act with such surprise
You should have known by now
‘Cause you can leave the past behind you
And you can try to compromise
But it still catches up somehow
CHANGE 2
And no one is immune to it
It’s something we all face
The unrest of never knowing
The time or the place
So don’t think for one second
That it can’t happen to you
All your problems have resurfaced
Out of the blue…
©2009, Chris Hludzik.
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BALL'S IN YOUR COURT
(Chris Hludzik)
I've waited on the sidelines
I've been a good sport
The ball's in your court
The ball's in your court
I've followed all the guidelines
Reviewed the reports
The ball's in your court
The ball's in your court
CHANGE:
Do you think that I will wait forever?
I might
Did you think that I would just give up
Without a fight?
You were right
I got tired of cleaning
It's such a mess to sort
The ball's in your court
The ball's in your court
I tried to find the meaning
I'm such a worry wart
The ball's in your court
The ball's in your court
CHANGE:
I won't ring your telephone
You'd only cut me short
The ball's in your court
The ball's in your court
If you need some space all of your own
Your view I won't distort
The ball's in your court
The ball's in your court
If the weight becomes too much for you
To carry and support
The ball's in your court
The ball's in your court
Just remember when you're ready to
I'll help tear down this fort
The ball's in your court
The ball's in your court
OUTRO (Repeat through fade)
The ball's in your court
The ball's in your court
Just remember when you're ready to
The ball's in your court
©2010, Chris Hludzik.
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Surroundings (Demo)
04:25
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SURROUNDINGS
(Chris Hludzik)
Get up in the morning
Tired and blue
It's just another empty day
That will be taken from you
Turn on the TV
Hear what the newsmen say
Well it seems the whole damn world
Is being thrown away
CHORUS:
Look around you
It surrounds you (x2)
Kids on the street
With no direction in their lives
Instead of pen and paper in their hands
They've got guns and knives
Out of the picture
Hanging on to the frame
Well it's hard to point the finger
When we're all to blame
CHORUS:
Man must face a test
A race against time
But his evil ways will make sure
We never see the finish line
Somewhere in the distance
A killer makes his mark
And it's hard to make light of the situation
When everything is dark
CHORUS:
OUTRO:
Look around you
It confounds
Look around you
It astounds
Look around you
It surrounds you.
©2013, Chris Hludzik.
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Chris Hludzik Scranton, Pennsylvania
CHRIS HLUDZIK is an original musician from Northeastern Pennsylvania. Chris has been writing songs for several years, and has been involved with many bands and projects (performing, writing, engineering, mixing, and producing), covering many styles and genres of music. His original music represents this diversity. ... more
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